I don't think I speak my mind enough!
I think I've become one of those people who keep there mouth shut when something bother's them!?! But here's the funny part! I have NO problem whatsoever speaking my mind to strangers! A stranger pisses me off: I yell/talk back to them! I get cut in line: I push my way infront. Someone takes my parking spot: I find them in the grocery store and start an argument! You'd think I'd be nervous confronting strangers - I guess it's because I know I'll never see them again and the fact that they don't know me- what do I care what a starngers thinks right?!? LOl - I know I'm weird!
But, if one of my friends or loved one does something to piss me off I just relax and keep my lip zipped! I don't seem to have the guts to speak my mind - I kinda hold it in til I burst! And uaally, by that point someone else is feeling the wrath of my pent up anger!
Part of me feels I hold in my feelings because when i do speak my mind I usually end up in trouble! I, like many others I'm sure sometimes feel "why would something want to listen to me voice my problems or concerns," especially when most people have problems of their own! I usually end up letting the most insignificant things eat me up!
This really is the worst feeling!
A lot of times I have these thoughts in my head - and I talk out the situation but my heart pounds so much I can't bare to let the words slip out passed my lips! Don't you just hate the power of the brain? And ya know what I hate even more? The power of the heart!
