Tuesday, September 23, 2008

That's Right I'm Not Talkin To You!


I don't think I speak my mind enough!

I think I've become one of those people who keep there mouth shut when something bother's them!?! But here's the funny part! I have NO problem whatsoever speaking my mind to strangers! A stranger pisses me off: I yell/talk back to them! I get cut in line: I push my way infront. Someone takes my parking spot: I find them in the grocery store and start an argument! You'd think I'd be nervous confronting strangers - I guess it's because I know I'll never see them again and the fact that they don't know me- what do I care what a starngers thinks right?!? LOl - I know I'm weird!


But, if one of my friends or loved one does something to piss me off I just relax and keep my lip zipped! I don't seem to have the guts to speak my mind - I kinda hold it in til I burst! And uaally, by that point someone else is feeling the wrath of my pent up anger!


Part of me feels I hold in my feelings because when i do speak my mind I usually end up in trouble! I, like many others I'm sure sometimes feel "why would something want to listen to me voice my problems or concerns," especially when most people have problems of their own! I usually end up letting the most insignificant things eat me up!
This really is the worst feeling!
A lot of times I have these thoughts in my head - and I talk out the situation but my heart pounds so much I can't bare to let the words slip out passed my lips! Don't you just hate the power of the brain? And ya know what I hate even more? The power of the heart!

16 comments:

Elisabeth said...

I know exactly what you mean!!

THopgood said...

I think I have the opposite problem....I can't seem to keep my mouth shut! They're both curses!

Momma On The Go said...

I have the same problem! Unfortunately when I do blow it is aimed at Justin!

Lori said...

I don't voice my opinion on either side, unless you really push me! I think some of it is just the need to please, some the I can handle it myself, some just the I don't want to deal with others suggestions/ opinions

Ashley said...

Now I'm curious: WHAT HAPPENED!? :)

Haha, I'm great at being assertive with my husband but no one else.

Is THAT weird!?

I'm getting better!

Amanda said...

I know what you mean - of course you read my post from the other day so you know how I feel on the subject!!!

Sarah Elizabeth said...

I am the oposite! I won't say a thing to strangers, but will speak every thought that crosses my mind to my loved ones. Which has gotten me in plenty of trouble over the years! I think a happy medium is the best bet.

Holding things in is never healthy, and I understand how it can eat away at you! Good thing we have these wonderful blogs to get everything out!

Christy said...

I tend to bottle things up too. And I hold grudges for WAY TOO LONG.

Auburn Kat said...

I used to have the same habit, I've been trying extremely hard to speak my mind before I internalize it for so long that I end up blowing up.

I really think a lot of people have this problem!

BTW, I DEFINITELY speak up in public!!

Andrea said...

I usually don't voice my opinion unless asked...or unless I think it's a super important topic...but I guess I'm just an easy-going personality since I never really "blow-up" either...

Brenda Chihi said...

After 5 yrs, I decided the next time my sister-in-law made one of her infamous comments, I would confront her. So I told her what she said hurt my feelings. Huge mistake, she went balistic. about how stressful her life was, and I ended up apologizing at the end! --lol

Mamarazzi said...

i think when the situation arises that it is TRULY important for you speak up...you will totally find your voice!

Tipp said...

what brought this on? I want details!

Alicia said...

I'm just like you. I only tend to speak up when something really ticks me off and I can't stand it any longer.

You have a great blog!

Alicia
momdot.com

Merrie said...

I'm like that -- and I tend to come up with really good things to say to people long after the fact. *sigh* I'm a great person to have around after the fact.

La Petite Belle said...

i know what you mean, you do come across as one of those people that are nicer than nice, and sometimes it's okay to just tell people how you feel, it's good for you.