Just Some Thoughts

I have been sooooo crazy busy lately I have had not time to blog! (and I wonder why I'm super stressed out!?! Blogging truly is my outlet and my sanity) Hopefully when my life starts up and I will get on a routine and start to feel normal again!

Anyway, I have been preparing to start the new job on Monday the 5th and I've trying to relax and do the things I need to before my vacation ends.

Today I cleaned out my old classroom... As a teacher, it is sooooooo crazy how much stuff you accumulate each year!! Books, folders full of papers, pictures, games, ect.. I could keep going and going and going.... But I finally got it all done after spending the day there!!! I was dreading that.. I guess because it really made it official.. That is no longer my job, my home, my comfort zone.. I am now forced to be a grown-up all over again and move forward with my life...

Though I look forward to getting comfortable and used to my new job I have nothing but axious feelings and thoughts. I ask myself, "will i be good at it? good like my old job? will i fit in? will i make friends, will people like me? will I hate it? what do i do if i hate it?"

I guess this is natural....I'm just hoping, I guess, for a great, new start!! I've been thinking about my future as this New Year begins and I really want this to be my year! I want to be happy, and healthy and get all of the things I deserve!! Cause I deserve it all!!! I think I need to tell myself that a little more often!! Maybe I'll start to believe it!!!

Hypothetical Question

Ok - I have a hypothetical question for you!

What if you have always wanted let's say to buy a house on the water. What if you thought that you were never going to be able to buy that big beautiful house that you have always dreamed of? Do you let go of that dream - do you let go of that thought? Or do you store it somewhere waaaaaaay in the back of your brain incase it happens someday? I really don't know!?!

I know that's kinda a lame post - but that's all I got at the moment!

That's Right I'm Not Talkin To You!

I don't think I speak my mind enough!

I think I've become one of those people who keep there mouth shut when something bother's them!?! But here's the funny part! I have NO problem whatsoever speaking my mind to strangers! A stranger pisses me off: I yell/talk back to them! I get cut in line: I push my way infront. Someone takes my parking spot: I find them in the grocery store and start an argument! You'd think I'd be nervous confronting strangers - I guess it's because I know I'll never see them again and the fact that they don't know me- what do I care what a starngers thinks right?!? LOl - I know I'm weird!

But, if one of my friends or loved one does something to piss me off I just relax and keep my lip zipped! I don't seem to have the guts to speak my mind - I kinda hold it in til I burst! And uaally, by that point someone else is feeling the wrath of my pent up anger!

Part of me feels I hold in my feelings because when i do speak my mind I usually end up in trouble! I, like many others I'm sure sometimes feel "why would something want to listen to me voice my problems or concerns," especially when most people have problems of their own! I usually end up letting the most insignificant things eat me up!

This really is the worst feeling!

A lot of times I have these thoughts in my head - and I talk out the situation but my heart pounds so much I can't bare to let the words slip out passed my lips! Don't you just hate the power of the brain? And ya know what I hate even more? The power of the heart!

He Said She Said

My boyfriend tells me that I am very passive aggressive .

He said: I want to go ride the bike(which is his motorcycle) with the boys on Sunday and then go to Tiki Bar.

I Said: Sure Babe that sounds like fun.

Hope it's a nice weekend for a ride!

My Brain Said: I hope it rains!

I mean I really don't care that he hangs out with his friends - he never sees them. I just wanted to have fun with him on this beautiful weekend instead of staying home and doing his laundry.. Too bad all of my friends already had plans this weekend.. Grrr...

Random Thoughts "Pizza" Recipe Exchange

Veggie Pizza Mini's

These are quick, easy, and taste excellent!!

Ingredients

*2 tablespoons extra virgin olive oil

*3/4 cup halved grape tomatoes

*3 English muffins, sliced in 1/2

*3 cups diced eggplant

*1/4 Vidalia onion, sliced

*5 small mushrooms, thinly sliced

*1 small zucchini, grated
*Salt , pepper, garlic powder to taste

*1 tablespoon balsamic vinegar

*1/2 cup grated mozzarella

*1/3 cup crumbled feta cheese (optional)

*1/4 cup shredded fresh basil leaves

Preparation

Preheat oven to 400 degrees F.
Heat 1 tablespoon of olive oil in a skillet and add tomatoes.

Cook until tomatoes are softened. Add salt, to taste.
Spoon cooked tomatoes evenly over Englishmuffin halves. In a skillet, saute eggplant, mushrooms, and onions in 1 tablespoon of olive oil. Add zucchini and cook until tender. Do not over cook, since they will cook some more in the oven. Add salt and pepper to taste. Spoon sauteed vegetables evenly over the tomatoes. Sprinkle each mini pizza with balsamic vinegar. Top with mozzarella. Sprinkle pizza with

garlic powder and basil.

Bake 25 minutes, or until cheese is melted and crust is lightly browned.