Approaching the big 3 - 0

In a few months I am going to be thirty. There, i said it. I said it and I got it out of the way. This is something that I have been struggling alot with lately!! When I turned 29 I had a little bit of a meltdown becuase I couldn't believe I finally hit the last year in my 20's!! and that was a BIG deal to me!! I called it my early life crisis....I just always figured I'd be alot further along in my life then where I am now.. I thought I'd be in a better job making a TON of money(but don't we all?), I thought I'd be married, and have atleast 1 kid.

But as I stop and think about it I am really happy!! I have a great home on the beach, wonderful friends, a great family, a beautiful puppy, and an amazing man that loves me with all of his heart!! What more could a girl ask for? I think about it and have come to see that I am very lucky, luckier then some people and I should be very thankful for that!!

As I stop and think about turning 3o in March and I think about all the good things I have to look forward to and I smile!! I smile because I know that my 30th Birthday is going to kick off the rest of my life and happiness I have to look forward to... Brian and I have been talking more and more about getting engaged which is very exciting for me.. My 30's are hopefully going to bring me an engagement, a marriage, kids, and continued happiness!!

So I need to stop look at 30 as being old, I need to stop looking back at my 20's and being sad about everything I did and had. I need to focus on my 30's and all the good things I have to look forward to - cause I certainly have a ton to look forward to and that makes me happy and excitied!!

Drum Roll Please......

So right at this moment my BIG secret is being exposed!! (sorry, yes i did write this post indvance) Right at this moment Brian & I are walking through the door at his parent's beach house for the 30th SURPRISE Birthday party that I have been planning for him for the past year.. Yes, that's right! I have been planning this party for a year! I actually started thinking about it at Danielle's Baby shower for Eliza which was last August!!

I know most of you are probably disappointed with my secret... But it was a big deal for me to keep that surprise from him for such a long time.. Brian's 30th Bday is on September 8th but I wanted to have the party for him before I get started with the school year again!!

I have invited 78 people, only 8 people said NO... So it's gonna be a big bash, I hope! I have gotten it catered, got a custom cake, and even made special Sangria for this big day!!

I am so excited I just hope he has NO idea!! But I guess we'll see...

Check back tomorrow - I'm sure I will have lots of pictures to post and stories to tell...

Sorry again if you thought my secret was going to be something better! But it was such a great secret for me to keep - I am so happy to be having this party for him! I love him sooo much and he really deserves to be surrounded by friends and family for this great milestone in his life!! I feel so happy to be doing this!! I hope it all goes well - Fingers Crossed!!