I Only Have One Thing To Say

And that is...................................

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!!!!!!

I have had such a week from hell! Between work and stress and work and stress and the new condo and stress I am sooooo beat!

This weekend I am going to do nothing but chill out relax and enjoy some time with me myself and I!

What about you? What kind of week have you had? What do you plan to do this weekend?

TGIF All....

And I'm off

I'm up early to get ready for my 1st official day at my new job! And I'm not embarrassed to admit that I'm scared out of my mind! I know this is something that I have to do, but it doesn't mean it's easy. Brian thinks I should be excited but all I really feel is nerves and something that resembles wanting to throw up!

I guess all I have to do is get through the 1st week and I'll be all good! I've prepared some good icebreaker and getting to know you activities for my lessons today and I'm just going to go from there.

Since i'm teaching within a hospital my bosses aren't going to be on site all of the time. But today and tomorrow 1 of them will be with me just incase I need help, have questions, etc.. I guess this rocks me and my nerves a lil bit too... Oh well...

So i'm off to my first day.. wish me luck and keep your fingers crossed it all goes well and that I like it!! Hey ya know never know wat could come from this!! We'll see!!! At least the paychecks will be bigger..

I'll be back later to give you an update...

xoxo

The Hardest Thing

Every now and then, in life, we need to do things we don't like to do. And today I need to do something that I really, really am not going to like to do! But I know I have to.I have so many mixed emotions.. Happiness, saddness,eager, anxious.. You name it - I'm feeling it.

I know I have been a little secretive the past 2 months or so but this week everything will all come out! It's really nothing bad so don't worry... Some of you may even say not to be stressed. But we all cope with things in a different manner....

Maybe you can give me some guidance. How do you cope with extreme stress? Have you ever had to do something that was really difficult for you?

I'm too stressed to write... I'll be back later and let you know

what's going on!!

Stressed, Emotional Mess

I am finding myself a stressed, emotional mess lately! Did you ever feel lost? Or Feel like you were drowning and barely able to come up for air? That's how I feel recently!!

I have insomnia which isn't helping with the situation! I find myself sitting up at night thinking about the things I have to do! Doesn't God know this isn't good for a girl with crazy anxiety issues!!! Sheesh.....

And to top it all off, me, the Christmas Queen.. Queen of getting it all done early.. Queen of always getting the perfect gifts, hasn't done a thing.. Well only 1 thing.. Usually I'm done by now!! I've just had so much on my plate right now.... I've been thinking about what to do and what to get but I'm blank... Hopefully the gift Gods can come down and help me out this year!! Maybe after Brian and I put up our Christmas tree this weekend I'll feel better.. Cause I love Christmas and being in a Jolly Good Mood!!!

When It Rains It Pours

So I've been a little down lately and I really can't explain why! I have this lonely feeling - and it sucks!

I once told Brian that I felt that God doesn't want good things to happen for me. He got really upset by that statement - but sometimes I feel that way. I wonder when good things will happen to me? When will it be my turn?

I know that I've been stressed at work - I feel like I get little support in all aspects of my job - and I'm sure this is weighing heavily on my shoulders since I spend so much time at work. Grrr..... I know this is adding to my stress!

I've also been having horrible anxiety attacks.. I've been trying to relax and fell good about myself - but sometimes it's hard! Anxiety attacks really bring about the worst feelings. I ahte them and hope soon that they will go away forever! I am thankful however that I have my Blog and all of my Bloggy friends to share my thoughts with.Sometimes I just want to rant and rave without hearing someone talk back to me, ya know.... I really think I could use a nice, loooong, relaxing vacation on an Island somewhere where my cell phone doesn't ring. I'd love to go away to get away from it all; lay on the beach with Brian and drink Pina Coladas until I can't see straight or remember

why I was depressed.

Ya know what else drives me insane - I got my tax rebate check $600.00 YAY.. Too bad I'm going to have to spend at the dentist beacause I cracked my tooth and I don't have dental insurance.. See what I mean - when it rains it pours!

I don't mean to sound ungrateful for the life I have.. I love my family and friends - I've just been feeling a little down.