And it All Comes Out

So like I said yesterday.... I've been a little secretive about a few things lately because I wasn't sure who was and who wasn't reading my blog. Some of you may already know this because of our

DM messages on Twitter... But for those of you that do not... I quit my job yesterday because I interviewd and received a new job

that is set to start in January!!

It is a great opportunity for me, especially in todays economy where people are having a difficult time finding work. Back in September I got a phone call from this woman who said she came across my resume on Monster and asked if I was still interested in a teaching position with a local hosptial by my house teaching children between the ages of 5 and 17 that have mental and behavioral disorders. So for the hell of it I said sure! And right then and there she set up a phone interview for the next day... A week later they set up another phone interview and it too went great... I hadn't heard anything in about 2 weeks but sure enough I got a phone call asking if they could set up a 3rd and final in-person interview.. I was very excited, never did I think it would have gotten this far...

You see, I was 1 out of 50 that were intitally interviewd....And then I was

1 out of 10 that got a 1 on 1 interview. So I went, the interview lasted 2 hours and it seemed to go great... But again, I didn't hear anything for about 1 month so I assumed I just didn't get it...

Sure enough I got a phone call with an official offer! And this is where the stress begins.. I kept thinking how am i going to leave my students, students that love and admire me. Students that love being in my class, students that are sad when I'm out for the day! I felt like such a bad person, like such a bad teacher... And then I thought about my friends at work and my bosses and how I love everyone.. And I thought about how comfortable I am there... And that's when it hit me! I can't stay at a job just because I'm comfortable. And just because I'm scared to go somewhere new.

So yesterday i told my bosses that this would be my last week of work. I have a 2 week Winter Break coming up so I was fortunate enough to leave them with 3 weeks notice. It just all happened so quickly. I was so upset when telling them I sobbed... I sobbed because I really want to stay even though I know I can't!

There are a million reasons for me not to take the job! But when it comes down to it there are only 2 reasons for me to take it. 1. It's double then what I'm making now and 2. Health benefits... So I've realized the time has come for me to move into a different stage of my professional life no matter how scary and anxious I feel. No matter how much I want to cry and hide in my comfort zone. It's somthing I have to do to grow both in my professional and personal life.

I have really enjoyed working at my school and that's why it was an extremely hard decision for me to make. So now I have some big changes coming up in my life and I just hope I have made the right decision. I'm sure I'll have many tears the first few weeks and I'm sure I'll need you all to lean on! I'll need you to listen and ask for your advice...